Not A Good Day

Unfortunately I think I have gotten a glimpse into what my child's life is going to be like and quite frankly it makes me extremely angry. I think proof that it makes me so angry is the point that I am typing this blog from work in the middle of my work day. So I go and drop Fia off at her daycare providers house this morning...now remember, this is the same provider that I have used for FOUR YEARS. So I drop off Fia and she tells me that she is giving me her two weeks and Fia has to leave. The reasoning she gave me was because she doesn't want Fia to get sick and then it would be a liability against her. Now, I'm not sure at all where this is coming from seeing as though we have NEVER blamed her for either of my kids being sick and Fia hasn't even been that sick. I just am so upset right now that I can't even think straight. Maybe this is the time where I have to really see if I should be working and maybe I should stay home with the kids. There is no way I can put Fia in a childcare center and if this is the reaction I get from a trusted care provider that I have used for four years, am I going to find ANYONE that will watch Fia? We also don't have tons of money to put her somewhere where it may cost more money. Is this going to be the way my child's life will be? Is she not going to be accepted places because she has CHD? My heart is breaking for my little girl right now and I don't know how I will face my provider for the next two weeks.